It is really so wonderful to be seeing you after such a long time! Aah I know feels good to be looking eye to eye, heart to heart after a long time. What to do? These everyday hassles of life hardly leave any time for the things that really matter to “us”. The worldly commitments, rate race is really killing, first for earning and then running to spending all the money to show that life is very “happening” and a host of other things leave hardly or no time for meeting you.
I do think often how far apart we are going. I yearn for that quality time with you where no one exists but you and me. It is only in these silences that I feel deeply connected to you. I don’t have any words to talk to you, yet there is so much that is conveyed in these silences. The sheer joy of existence, the celebration of “being” in life, that silent acknowledgement that we exist for the same purpose and so many unsaid things. I miss all that dearly.
Sometimes I do wonder how much I have grown up in life. Those dreams we had as children are now coming true. None of this would have been possible but for your stoic support. Trust me! Deep within it was you who gave me the conviction that with patience and faith we would achieve a lot in life. I know I should have acknowledged this long back but I was so busy “looking good” for the other people in my life that I always took you for granted.
I could see in your eyes the hurt you have undergone whenever I underwent pain in any relationships, disappointment with life or anything at all that made me sad. Like a fool, I made sure I quickly looked away to avoid acknowledging my pain. I was afraid that you would know my deepest feelings / fears. If only I took you as my friend I would have been so comforted by your presence rather than being threatened.
I am really thankful for this day and time which forced me to stay indoors and meet you. In the normal course I would have been busy staring at the monitor, but I am glad for the rains which are pouring their heart out. I could stare at the mirror and pour my heart out to you! I am indeed meeting myself after a long time…
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What was that!!! Too much hat ke kind of thinking...
r u ok??
Such ramblings seem to highlight your pathos.. Believe me time is just constantly moving.. But we have no time to stand and stare.. we choose to fill our time with stuff and then crib we did not see the sun , the colors of the sky and the rain...
Sometimes, I wonder, how much time is it really enough for a human to realise the value of life and time spent living a life !!!
cheers and all the best.
As always love your thoughtful observations!
Well, there is nothing wrong with me.,just felt this strongly when I was actually looking at a huge mirror sometime back when I was relatively free I feel this is what many of us experience..”Not meeting ourselves” on a regular basis, ironically we are so busy in “meetings” or “meeting others”!
I agree, we all need to acknowledge that time is running out and so is the smell of mud after rain..Nothing will stop for us!
Thanks buddy!
i wud say u cud ve tried it as a poem.....very well written n yeah really tru
Never tried a poem..May be sometime soon! Thanks
beautiful post.. keep it going..
hi i felt post was for me 2!!! :) gr8 to knw we share the same thoughts.. true everyone most of the time hardly spent even 1% of their life in a year of 8760 hours searching and learning of their own self, their inner desires.. rather the hunt is always for the dream set on the outset by family, friends, society, emerging trends, world scenario... and the self is a forgotten person.. a self that drifts apart from true relationships.. what exists is only contacts and networks.. a demological ceasarean of our existence.. seems like my life was rephrased there in words.. but yet the show must go on.. or if not my existence is at stake :) :) :) so i live with this farce!!!
Sharing something i read earlier - so deep n profound - no wonder it stayed with me. When i caught up on ur blog today this once again sprung into instant memory!
Indeed in an age when there is no time for simple emotion staying connected with yourself is the biggest challenge! The only silver lining being atleast there is realisation of what we miss out on...that's a start. Happy reflections....
Har khushi Hai Logon Ke Daman Mein,
Par Ek Hansi Ke Liye Waqt Nahi.
Din Raat Daudti Duniya Mein,
Zindagi Ke Liye Hi Waqt Nahi.
Maa Ki Loree Ka Ehsaas To Hai,
Par Maa Ko Maa Kehne Ka Waqt Nahi.
Saare Rishton Ko To Hum Maar Chuke,
Ab Unhe Dafnane Ka Bhi Waqt Nahi.
Saare Naam Mobile Mein Hain,
Par Dosti Ke Liye Waqt Nahi.
Gairon Ki Kya Baat Karen,
Jab Apno Ke Liye Hi Waqt Nahi.
Aankhon Me Hai Neend Badee,
Par Sone Ka Waqt Nahi.
Dil Hai Ghamon Se Bhara Hua,
Par Rone Ka Bhi Waqt Nahi.
Paison ki Daud Me Aise Daude,
Ki Thakne ka Bhi Waqt Nahi.
Paraye Ehsason Ki Kya Kadr Karein,
Jab Apane Sapno Ke Liye Hi Waqt Nahi.
Tu Hi Bata E Zindagi,
Iss Zindagi Ka Kya Hoga,
Ki Har Pal Marne Walon Ko,
Jeene Ke Liye Bhi Waqt Nahi.......
Cheers!
Amrita
i'm not aware who ur target audience is, but pics are a gateway to the blind souls.
I like the thought process, can relate well. can share wid u some ideas later. Sai ram
I agree that you may have to continue the farce for being the rat race ..more important is the fact that you are aware it is a farce and consiously set time to be with yourself once in a while.
Simply loved the poem in Hindi, very happy you took time to pen it down here..Thanks a lot :)
Zindagi mey sab kuch hai par Wakt nahin :)
Thanks for your suggestions..will try out pictures too. As of now hope the words are pictorial enough.
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